Ultimate Bruh Moment: This Bloody Window

[modusmicah]

On my previous post, I talked about dissociation and how that really messed up a couple of days. Wherein I essentially dissociated and forgot myself, then lost a few days worth of memories. The inciting incident being a cracked window in my apartment that I feared would take substantially from my savings - which I plan to move to the Netherlands with.

Yesterday, I recieved the quote from the contractor regarding how much this would cost. It's £180. That's still a lot of money, but for context I was assuming it would cost £400 - £1,000, based on my own online research. However, luckily it's not that much! Which is great news, and work will be complete in a few weeks once the glass has been ordered in.

But I do gotta think, bruh. I was so anxious about this and it turned out to be nothing. That being said, there are other factors that resulted in the dissociation. I still don't truly feel 100% back to 'normal' just yet, but it is improving. Just goes to show the power of the straw that breaks the camel's back.

Comments

[beepbird]

Glad it's cheaper than expected! Very much understand the power of one thing to tip over an edge when you're already stressed. Be kind to yourself, alright?

[modusmicah]

Aye, I try to be kind. Though I have to admit that it's hard whene, under this system, there's always something that needs to be done. I'm always someone who is planning ahead, that means that there's always something to do and something to be worked on.

At some point I'll write about my plans, at any given time I have a one, three, five, and ten year plan.

[beepbird]

I get you there. If we don't have at least one plan to follow, our mental health dips very quickly, so we always have something lined up. Several somethings because we use structured procrastination to do things when the brain refuses.

- NS